‘Lay yourself upon my Table…and we will bring you back into the world lighter and brighter, and transformed, that you may know your self first, before you know others.’
Heru speaks to Light workers in what is a forthright communication about knowing ourselves and acting in the world from this self awareness in order to serve more wholly.
In recognition of such a challenge, His message begins with a blessing: ‘Now to the Prism of Light: It’s radiance bends forth into the world that we may see the Christ force within us. A blessing upon you, and a blessing upon you who read this message.’
As usual, I map out my own experience and learning related to Heru’s communication, but you’re welcome to skip to the end for His message.
When Heru first communicated that He would teach me to be His vehicle in the manifest plane, He said: ‘I will take you so far; you must do the rest. What I am saying is, yes, free will. What I am saying is that I will teach you my way. I will give you so much, and then you will unravel the rest.’
Like any worthy teacher, a lot of what is taught resides in the holding of space as I journey the lessons. In this way, I ‘unravel the rest’ through my choices, experiences and reflections. Isha Schwaller de Lubicz, in her writing on Ancient Egyptian wisdom, explains this approach nicely: ‘True teaching is not an accumulation of knowledge; it is an awaking of consciousness which goes through successive stages; each consists in discovering the key to the following door’. By signposting and guiding, and taking me ‘so far’, but not all the way, Heru enables me to find the keys that unlock each subsequent door to my own understanding and awareness.
While much of His guidance relate to practicalities of our work in the world, there are times when the lessons focus on my inner development.
Well, this business of coming to know oneself is rarely easy, and made none the gentler for its tendency to play out in our most treasured relationships. A case in point occurred a few weeks ago in what has served to be my most significant lesson in many, many years. It involved the rearing of a very old pattern of behaviour; so old it had crept behind my filters of perception and stayed there unseen. It relates to my tendency to avoid conflict by ignoring or excusing the situation or person, withdrawing away or absenting myself.
When I relayed the events to my mum she told me about a wee girl who hid behind the fridge in her little white nighty when her grandparents came to visit. Now that wee girl might have had very good reason for hiding, though I only remember adoring them both. Certainly as she grew, she had every reason to avoid conflict, anger and violence, but it seems that like most, my inner child took her survival methods into adulthood.
Such was born out with a friend in a recent situation that triggered past hurts. Over a period of days as my friend’s own hurts were compounded, and retriggered by my confounded silence and inability to find a way back to connection, anger entered the space. Of course, the more anger, the more rage, the more criticism, the smaller and smaller that wee girl got, until she was well and truly tucked in behind that fridge. Before long, my friend and I had entered into a dynamic cycle of hurt and disappearance.
From here, separation occurred; not just separation from the other person, but separation from Self. When we disappear behind any heightened emotion, we tend to lose our ability to act from a place of self-awareness. Disappearing behind hurt, anger, rage, grief and fear doesn’t leave much room for empathy and connection, let alone Higher Love. The chance of being heard disappears with the emotion, along with the ability to listen. Understanding flies out the window, with compassion sadly clinging to its tail. And trust is well and truly diminished.
This was a difficult time, but as Heru explains, such is true of most significant lessons. This understanding that has me grateful to my friend and others with whom I’m in relationship, for how I come to learn about myself in being with them. And, because I can only do my own self-work, it has been important for me to look at my part in the situation. By looking I’ve come to understanding, and hope that I will now have greater choices in how I act.
So what did I learn? Well, firstly, when those on the Inner, who initially trained me, said I’d been ‘well swept’, in reference to my ego tendencies, they ought to have added, but there’s a tad more clearing to do! The sense of completeness I thought I must have achieved in order to be the vessel for this wondrous being Heru, was found wanting. A mere mortal after all; a person with a colourful history, with emotions and sensitivities, reactions and patterned behaviours, with foibles and eccentricities, prone to making mistakes and striving with hopes and desires, and a myriad other tendencies in all their grime and grit – and, yes, holiness.
I learnt that my communication skills are challenged sometimes when I need them most. I was reminded that mindfulness counseling practice is different to living mindfully! In relation to this, I learnt not to ignore the powerful presence of my bodily expressions because that is where anxiety manifests first for me (Yes, I did do a thesis on this… something about healer know thyself!). I learnt that my child is more likely to kick in when I’m feeling vulnerable, unwell, tired or unsafe, and where the person or situation is important to me. I linked the event to my childhood history and understand its mirroring effects. And I’ve resolved to engage more fully in ways that reflect my values in this regard. Part of that means standing up for myself; as an adult, coming out from behind the fridge, and confronting people and situations from my truths. (And I hear a few of you exclaiming, about bloomin’ time!)
Another aspect of living true to my values has to do with being more aware of the impact of my behaviours on others; of not assuming I know what they want, but being open to learning from them about their needs. Of course, I am better able to do this if I know what my needs are!
So, how do I determine my needs and how do I come to know myself better? Well, I go through an experience like this one! But actually, it’s not enough to have the experience. We need to do the inner reflection too. We can have all the experiences in the world, positive and negative, but if we’re not learning from them… well, you get my drift.
I like to talk about my experiences with trusted friends or in a safe therapeutic environment, though I know that’s not everyone’s cup of tea. I also think that any practice that helps us connect to our Higher Self has to aid in this getting to know ourselves. And, that it’s not all about thinking; it’s about our lived bodily experiences but also about our heart or spiritual connection. Whatever that means for us, it is a communion on the sacred level that connects us to the Source of our being – and it is that Love, that communion with self and Other, which helps facilitate the waking of our consciousness.
If this experience has taught me anything, it has reinforced the intraconnectedness of us all; that we are always in relationship, and that I not only aid my own spirit’s evolution by coming to know myself, but by doing so, I have the potential to move more fluidly in the web of relations within which I live and have my being. And hopefully in this, I make for a better vessel, healer, counsellor, companion, friend, family member…
On that note, I am off to meditate! Thank you again for sharing in part of my journey; May you be blessed to the amount you are able to receive. I leave you now with Heru’s loving communication.
‘When we come into the world as the Spirit speaking, we make known truths that we see from planes where we exist. They are clear here, not muddied by polluted waters. Our streams run free. Our currents are strong. And we bring the line of the Source into the world. It is the time for the Christ to be known within each child, and each adult. It is this teaching that we extend to the human race. We call it Christ and it is the I AM. It is the force of knowing one’s Self. It is the force of knowing one in Self, and Self as One.
‘We climb down from On High to bring you this message, as many have done before and continue to do: Rise up Spirit seekers, Light workers. Unite in your understanding that Love is the key. Jesus brought this message millennia ago. It is not new. The ancients knew it. You in this Earth plane see it at times in a new born baby, in a flower, a snowflake, a rainbow, a cake that has risen, a smile, a touch, in a lover’s eyes. You see it, and you feel it. We ask you to bring this into yourself and to know. We beg you to do so that you will understand the richness of your being, and that you will then be in the world in this way.
‘I come through my child now, my companion, and bride. I bring her with me and I transform her as we go. Hers is a lonely path. I am pulling her along with me. She does not kick or scream, but she does cry and wonder, and she is perplexed and bewildered, and frightened at times. And this is what it means to be in the world, to live with Spirit. To be a Light worker is not only about Love. Love is the key. Love is the message. Love is of the Divine, within and without. But to be a Light worker is to strive, is to give, is to know how to receive, and to give some more. It is to give of yourself after you have learnt to know yourself, and it is in the coming to know yourself that the most pain occurs. Too many skip this part. Too many dive in unaware. We bring you forth gently and slowly when you turn to see us, but we do so with force and determination that you will be in the world that satisfies the Light within and without. If you cannot be in the world as you would be in the Light or in Spirit, you cannot be fully in the Light working. Do you understand?
‘Bring yourself forth. Bring yourself to the Table. Lay yourself upon my Table and I will feed you, and we will partake of you, and we will digest you, and we will bring you back into the world lighter and brighter, and transformed, that you may know yourself first, before you know others. You cannot know others or the Other until you know yourself, until you act from that knowing. Is that clear?
‘Clear it may be, practice it takes; a lifetime of dedication, of change and changing. And people around you will fall away, and others will come. And your path will be cleared for this work. In your dedication given, you will be free to pursue it, though it will not be easy.
‘Do not make the commitment lightly. It is a blessing to do so, but it requires hard work; a lifetime of such. We will guide you and we will protect you, and we will show you yourself, and you will decide. And your decision will be made, and you will go into the world free, and we will accompany you. And where you fail, we will withdraw, though we do not leave. And failing is only in the not knowing of Self, the abandonment of the One, who is you. For this we weep, for you are a Blessed being.
‘We bring you to our breast and suckle you in the Light that you may suckle others, and you must do so wholly, in the knowledge of the I AM, in the knowledge of the One, as Jesus did give, when the Christ came into Him. So too, you must turn to face the Christ within. And then you will know. And then you will see. And pray, then you will act.
‘And we bless you for this. We bless you Light workers. Spirit sees and knows and blesses you in the world that the Source comes through, and the load is lighter, and the planes rejoice for your dedication. Yes we do.
‘Go and be brave. Be brave for yourself and for what you co-create. Be brave for the web of which you are a part, in thought and action, and feeling and knowing. Send out the Light. When you have found it within, hold some and send some out, and we will join you. Yes we will, blessed being.’
1. Schwaller de Lubicz, I (1955) Her-bak: the living face of Ancient Egypt. (p190) New York: Inner Traditions International.
2. James_C (1989) Key of Life. Flicker photostream, located at:
Accessed, January 26, 2013.
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